Break From Emotions

Been too Long...

2008-11-14T08:48:00.000-08:00

Hi and GoodBye...

1,5 months and counting...since the last time i wrote in this blog.

Grateful for today...
I'm grateful for having a small bums 'cause i could still fit in my 5 year old -already- tapered jeans..
*smiley*

News..News..
I'm a newbie in my newest blogosphere adventure in tumblr. still don't know if i am going to quit blogspot or not ?!? Since my father died this blog seems to depressed for me to read it.

photo from flickr

Nothing can beats Family...

2008-09-08T20:38:00.000-07:00

Nothing can beats Family...

Another Black/White...

2008-08-27T10:14:00.000-07:00

ANOTHER BLACK/WHITE

How Things Change...

2008-08-27T09:52:00.000-07:00

HOW THINGS CHANGE.

I used to feel save in my life...

Everything just work the way i would like to be,

Even when things got out of control i could always bend it back to where i want it to go.

Suddenly, so many responsibilities coming right at me...

I couldn't even catch my breath for a moment. Live My life for a moment.

Only needed to go away... for a while.

Here Today Gone Tomorrow

2008-06-08T08:41:00.000-07:00

Here Today Gone Tomorrow

My dad died a month ago. Jujur gw gak bisa ngomong apa-apa, lidah rasanya kelu setiap kali ada orang yang tanya gimana bokap meninggal..

rasanya dada gw sesak waktu gw harus mengulangi cerita yang sama ke family relatives yang belum tahu kabar ini..

I'm heart broken. And it hurts so much...

Save me a place up there Dad!
One day i'll be seeing you again....

in memoriam

My Dad
(April 21,1949 - May 6,2008)

2008-04-03T03:37:00.000-07:00

Literature = Green Reading

Suatu hari sehabis nonton Into the Wild sampai mata sembab, gw mulai cari buku-buku yang jadi referensi dari si Christopher Mccandless yang membuat dia berpikiran untuk menyerahkan keduniawian buat mencari apa yang dia anggap as a happiness or freedom from material thing.

Dan dari dua buku yang gw cari, Walden by Thoreau dan Call of The Wild by Jack London, susah banget menemukan yang Walden, kebanyakan cuma jual yang Call of The Wild saja. Pernah ketemu tapi sudah abridged alias udah diedit ulang lebih pendek dari yang sebenarnya.

Karena iseng gw cek-cek ke google soal download classic ebook dan gw temukanlah Literature project yang nyediain berbagai macam judul literature classic yang menurut gw bagus-bagus. Dan it's for a good cost, read an ebook and saving a tree. Walaupun udah ada buku-buku yang pakai recycle paper seperti Harry Potter, sebagian besar masih harus tebang pohon buat bikin kertas.

So, reading classic = environment friendly?

2008-04-02T08:59:00.000-07:00

FOTOFOTO

Di Jak Jazz nih..ingin kembali lagi tahun ini.

Mendungmendung..fotofoto..langitlangit.

Daily job..ngerjain tugas..

narsis abis..love yourself.

nunggu makanan dateng..

Broken Heart is hard to do...

2008-03-26T01:28:00.000-07:00

Broken Heart is hard to do...

Sedihnya liat teman teman gw yang hubungannya berjatuhan...mau curhat berkali-kali pun gak bakal bikin perasaan jadi lebih enak..

Been there done that cuma itu tanggapan gw soal broken hearted feeling. It crushed you hard. It was surreal. You don't want to hear anyone. You don't want to talk with anyone. You just keep making excuses about what you could've done to avoid your broken heart.

And then it became one hell of an experience. It makes you tougher than ever.

2007-12-02T05:43:00.000-08:00

12 Hours On Road

Karna lagi males dan too tired to write..kayanya fotofoto ini cukuplah..
Fotoblog critanya..

2007-11-15T21:59:00.000-08:00

All About...

These days I couldn’t really describe my feeling through words. Totally confuse about what I’m going to say...it’s already in my tongue but it won’t come out like a vomit that you hold on your mouth.

Okay, happy things first...
• Holiday on lebaran
• It’s almost Christmas which is always a good thing.
• I have new cell phone
• I have a huge salary for this couple of month
• Big bonus, which I could saved up for college fee
• Taking a long on leave next month for x-mas

Then the bad things
• I’m doing multiple jobs since October
• For two weeks on Sunday I have final test
• Losing my money to pay for my clumsiness as a cashier
• I haven’t meet my best friends since lebaran
• Haven’t met Tari in a long time and now she’s already in Japan.
• Having a partner whose very moody and make me feel like a total bastard

Well that’s a recap...since october until now.

Harry Potter Fever..

2007-07-24T22:59:00.000-07:00

Harry Potter Fever

What can i say about Harry Potter,,buku yang bikin seluruh dunia perbukuan gempar karena kadar confidentialnya yang gilagilaan, dari mulai publisher,percetakan sampai bookstore harus bener2 menjaga jangan sampai isi buku ini bocor kemana-mana, bahkan sampai dibikin buku berjudul "WHAT WIIL HAPPEN IN HARRY POTTER 7". Dari internet dah banyak gosip-gosip klo Harry Potternya mati lah atau Harry Potternya jadi jahat lah... and i got lucky to be able to read it first before all readers over the world. Dan dari sebelum buku itu masuk logistik, customer order buat buku terakhir ini dah mencapai hampir 200 buku di tempat gw kerja. Di hari H launching buku HP7, dari jam 8 pagi beberapa orang dah mulai ngantri nungguin toko buka... sampai tutup toko sudah berkarton-karton buku HP7 terjual...

Hari seninnya gw nonton Harry Potter and the order of phoenix rame-rame, walaupun udah ngerasa eneg banget sm Harry Potter, ternyata filmnya oke banget agak lebih dark dari film yang sebelumnya, mungkin karena si Harry dah mulai gede kali ya...yang pasti sih seperti biasa special effectnya oke skali....thumbs up lah. Favorite character gw itu si Luna Goodlove...cute but mysterious girl.

Now the week is over for Harry Potter fever....

Expecto patronum!!!

Take this sorting hat test to see on which home you belong...

I'm
a Hufflepuff!

2007-07-24T22:11:00.000-07:00

WEIRD THINGS

Dah lama gak main chain games,Tiba2 Pepupi memberiku chain games baru,,mumpung nganggur lagi libur gw kerjain lah...

Instructions: Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave a comment that says you are tagged in their comments and tell them to read your blog.

My 6 weird things...
1.gw bisa nyari channel radio dalam gelap sambi merem sebelum tidur dengan satu tangan dan hafal lagi di channel mana lewat suara penyiarnya..

2.kadang suka ngomong sendiri waktu lagi mikirin sesuatu,bikin teman kerja gw takut.

3.a lil' bit afraid of commitment,no explanation for this one.

4.suka bunuhin kecoa pake sapu lidi,saving my sister from screaming and running around the house.

5.gak bisa tidur kurang dari jam 1 malam,kecuali klo abis lembur 2 hari.

6.gw ngerasa lebih rajin klo kerja dari sore sampai malam drpd dari pagi smpai siang..agak2 berjiwa klelawar gitu deh...

mau dilempar ke...
siapa aja deh yg mau...

2007-07-22T05:23:00.000-07:00

MISSING...

I’m in the moment of remembrance…somehow my mind flew away and landed in my past life, to be exact it landed on a very amazing days at my old campus in Depok. It was marvelous although it’s a short 3 years I spent there but it was definitely the best days.

The faculty, The varied and beautiful people, Kansas, Meja Kuning dan Hijau, Japanese Language Class of ’02…and sumone I used to care so much.

Nothing more…only missing the past but lovin’ the future.

these are the days that i've been missing;
give me the taste,
give me the joy of summer wine.
these are the days that bring new meaning;
i feel the stillness of the sun
and i feel fine.

sometimes when the nights are closing early
i remember you and i start to smile.
even though now you don't want to know me
i get on by...
and i go the extra mile.

these are the times of love and meaning;
eyes of the heart melted away
and found the light.
these are the days of endless dreaming;
troubles of life are floating away like a bird
and flyin'.

i thought you said our love would last forever.
believin' that the tears would end for good.
i told them that we'd get though any weather.
maybe that didn't work out
but we did the best we could.

these are the days that i've been missing;
give me the taste,
give me the joy of summer wine.
these are the days that bring new meaning;
i feel sthe stillness of the sun
and i feel fine.

(Jamie Cullum)

2007-07-11T20:07:00.000-07:00

Well People Lied...

I just got pretty shock hearing recent news about someone,everybody said that she's been lying about her life and things that she own. At first it was very hard to believe but when i hear the complete stories from different peoples..all i can say is "Wow...what a big liar she is!!".

What i can't believe is how could she live like that...how could she live in lies and get stuck in her own fake life. I guess after one or two lies she tell to people around her, she became numb from it and cannot keep her tongue from saying lies. So it just continues...i don't know why she would want to lie about her life, If she just said the truth people wouldn't hate her like what happen today. I just hope that she realized it and didn't do it again. Because we dicided not to tell anyone else about her lies.

I guess the phrase "mulutmu adalah harimaumu" really do make sense...

2007-06-30T08:46:00.000-07:00

FoodFest

Hari ini gw seharian memuaskan keinginan gw buat makan enak di Festival Jajanan Bango di Senayan. Dari mulai masuk senayan sampe ke parkirannya itu maceeet banget,dapet parkirnya agak jauh dan cuaca lagi panas-panasnya..tapi tetep donk!!demi makan enak...hehehe!!

Begitu liat stand-stand makanannya,agak kalap sih tapi stan pertama yg gw masuki itu nasi goreng gila Menteng karna gw blom makan dari rumah,pastinya sih enak lah. Trus yang kedua itu ketoprak Ciragil gw makan berdua sm kk cewe' gw,klo yg ini sih udah terkenal jadi pasti enak juga. Ketiga adalah masakan menado di Beautika, jadi satu box nasi trus pilih lauknya deh,favorit gw itu ikan roanya...enaaak dan pedees bgt!!!.
Keempat,akhirnya gw nyerah gak mau makan nasi lagi trus yang jadi sasaran gw adalah pempek palembang sama risol setan dari Kafe Betawi yang dibawa pulang.

Puas banget deh hari ini,tapi ada juga sih makanan yang gak sempet gw beli karena antriannya gilagilaan ky baso bakar ato batagor. Saking ribetnya gw sampai gak sempet foto-foto,sibuk makan..^0^

Besok gw cuti 2 hari minggu sm senin,bisa sedikit santai-santai nih di rumah.
What a great saturday....

2007-06-21T13:20:00.000-07:00

Talking Travel...

Hmmm…this are the time where I would write in English…I really want to upgrade my ability in English so I try to read English book as often as I could, talk in English as more as I could and write much more English as I could. I don’t know if it is working or not? But I think it’s my time to expand things that I could do…

You may never know that maybe I could write a travel journal in English and sold it. Travel. That was my true obsession…my mind always wondering when I could just left this country of mine and travels the world. Those great places won’t go anywhere; in fact these great places are waiting for me to explore them. See things that I didn’t know, understand other cultures then I would complete myself.

One customer once said to me that 1 year traveling teaches him a lot more than 4 years in college and Indonesia is his 13th country he visited. And the last thing he said to me is “God doesn’t create beautiful places just to be watched on the telly” (this guy is British, telly means television). “Travel and you figure yourself out”.

And I made him bought Michael Crichton travel journal fiction that I suppose to keep for myself. Well, good conversations always come when you meet great and new person everyday. That’s what I do.

2007-06-21T13:03:00.000-07:00

Weeks after weeks...

It's been so long...dah lama gak nulis di blog ini keseringan di blog rame2 gw bareng sm anak2 alumni jepang UI..but i want this blog to keep alive, so i wrote again.

Firstly, di tempat kerja gw sekarang ini banyak anak2 baru dan gw dah punya partner resmi buat jaga kandang di children section..yippie!!

Yang anehnya di minggu-minggu ini gw lebih sering jalan sm orang2 baru daripada sm sahabat2 gw...mungkin gw lagi butuh suasana baru kali ya...?!?padahal dah beberapa kali mereka hubungin gw buat janjian,,tp jadwal kerja gw yg shift2an itu bikin gw malas buat jalan...intinya sih klo gak sesuai sm schedule kerja gw ya gw gak bakal ikutan hang out,,

yang lainnya sih...nothing new..tetep jomblo with tons of hookups..hahaha!!

2007-06-05T22:16:00.000-07:00

Life. Never been so hard.

It’s been so long...i swamp my self on my job and my studies… and for the first time in my life I have no words to say about myself, I realize that something have change, my feelings, my moods, my opinion about a lot of stuff…and I just can’t get it out of my system.

It happens after me finally forgetting someone who’s been in my radar for quite a long time… I finally get out of him and suddenly everything is changing, like I’ve got this big energy that has been taken before… so I ended up making this energy as my reason to do all these things that I thought would make me happy and I always think that I owe myself a good times because I work and study hard. It turns out not really that fun, but I have no doubt that it made me appreciate what I’ve had all this year.

I didn’t miss him, but I miss the feeling of having someone to care but not like for forever kind of thing. I still want to feel free about myself, trying’ everything that I curiously want to do, having a lot of experience with a lot of and various people.

So all I have to do now is keeping my self sober and conscious about everything. It’s all about self control and boundaries. I really need to put my own limitation about all things, to keep myself for not getting’ out of my track.

2007-05-27T19:43:00.000-07:00

These Marriages Thingy…

Recently everybody is getting married, people older than me, people younger than me. It’s like everybody is really into this marriage stuff. Well I wouldn’t call it just a stuff, but this marriage thing really shakes my nerves….because apparently it’s kind of scary thing for me, I’m totally knocked off when people starts talking about marriage.Giving my whole self and sharing it with another person is too hard for me to handle especially the part where you both have to stay together forever…maybe I’m too selfish but I still wouldn’t want to lose the control for my own life.

I know sooner or later it will hit me, but I’m saved for now because I’m the second child and seeing my sister being chased by my mother to get married is not a really great view. A friend said that it’s easy to give yourself in a marriage because you’re in love…jeez!!! how romantic it would be…well I guess I’m to stubborn to give myself…hyahaha…my parents would kill me if I said that and keep reminding me that like my sister I’m already old enough to get married too…oh…SHIT!!!!

Meanwhile next month there would be a lot of wedding reception that I have to attend. While my friends keeps those flowers the bride is wearing in her hair for hoping to be the next lucky bride, I’m gonna go to the desert table and eat a lot of pudding until I’m full and go home.

2007-05-05T23:46:00.000-07:00

3 DAYS TRAINING...

Suatu hari Ass. Manager gw bilang klo gw disuruh ikut training 3 hari...pikiran pertama gw adalah.."koq trainingnya baru sekarang sih?!?kan gw dah setahun kerja?!?".

1st Day..
Seharian dalam ruangan training bareng anak baru + anak2 yang masuknya satu angkatan sm gw.. kinda sleepy but the subject is really important for my job.. so i listened to it anyway.. and try to recite it on my head.

2nd Day..
Jalan-jalan ke competitor stores.. lucu juga, soalnya gw adalah pecinta toko buku dan setiap ke toko buku manapun gw tidak pernah mengobservasi toko2 itu dengan seksama kaya kemarin itu.. jadi a lil' bit wierd because i have to judge the stores service, the products, the price, and etc..After that back to the main store, observing our main store and display training.

3rd Day..
The presentations day about competitor stores we go to yesterday, the rest is a lot about customer service subject and our stories about customer complaints.. that's a wrap and i'm goin' back to the branch store tomorrow.

For a training it was very fun, not too serious but definitely important..and the great thing is i could get away for a while from my daily job...hyahaha.

2007-04-18T01:03:00.000-07:00

How things lost...

My worst habit is on the rise again... kartu ATM gw hilang entah kemana!! Padahal gw dah seminggu gak ambil duit dan terakhir gw liat masih di dalem dompet gw. Untungnya sisa saldo di rekening gw gak nyampe 100ribu.. jadi buat yg menemukan kartu ATM gw... rugilah lo...rekening gw gak ada duitnya... thank God gw selalu memindahkan gaji gw ke rekening tabungan yg lain.

Tapi pastinya nyokap gw ngomel..karena kecerobohan gw yg entah udah keberapakalinya ini, akhirnya tadi di bank pas lapor buat ngeblokir kartu ATM, gw memutuskan gak usah pake kartu ATM lah,,mending ambil langsung aja,,biar gak boros,,jadi sekarang kartu ATM gw cuma satu doank... itu juga lebih sering gw tinggal di rumah.

Huh..bete...

2007-04-09T23:08:00.000-07:00

Clouds above...

Gw sempet serem bgt waktu ambil foto ini, soalnya banyak kilat dan mendung banget, tapi gw gak mau sampai langitnya keburu ilang jadi buru buru deh ngambilnya.

Klo ini karena keseringan bengong di balkon trus tiba2 langitnya berubah jadi bagus bgt..larilah gw ke dalem rumah ngambil kamera dan beginilah hasilnya ..agak kacau sih fokusnya.

Pake kamera Hp kakak gw..iseng nyoba aja..ternyata bagus juga yah..what a nice sky..

Holiday smells good

2007-03-31T07:48:00.000-07:00

Liburan nih... akhirnya dapet libur minggu-senin juga... seharian gw buka internet trus nge download lagu2nya the shins, tortured soul sm camera obscura... syenangnya dapet lagu gratis.. hyahaha...

Just wanna enjoy my off time at home..sleeping and eating.. dasar diriku pemalas..huehehe...

2007-03-25T21:42:00.000-07:00

Weekend...

Libur sabtu kemarin saking kebanyakan acara gw jadi bingung ndiri harus ngapain...
Plan 1, nemenin resthi ke sastra ktm nora sm wahyu, trus ke Blok M ktman sm Devvy
Plan 2, pergi sm anak2 jepang ktman di blok M menghabiskan hari ber hahahihi...
Plan 3, tiba2 tante dan obasan ku tercinta nelfon minta anter ke BSD serpong trus gw kabur ketemuan sm anak2 di blok M

Akhirnya yang terjadi adalah nganter obasan + ryoshin + tante gw ke Serpong, seru sih makan2 gitu dan tempatnya juga enak bgt, very out of city,,

Namanya Pecel Madiun..very cozy place, klo dari depan sih pintu masuknya kecil banget, tapi ternyata parkirannya luas dan tempat makannya modelnya ky pake gazebo-gazebo gitu...dan makanannya enak..walaupun terbatas cuma makanan jawa timur doank...
Overall siy oke...only one complain aja pelayannya kurang banyak..waktu dateng gw bingung koq restoran sepi amat gak ada pelayannya...

Nerusin crita soal weekend setelah makan tiba2 KK gw nelfon minta di jemput ke kantornya di BNI Sudirman, gila yah..mau ketemuan sm temen gw susahnya minta ampun, abis jemput nyokap ngajak ke pasaraya dan beramairamailah ke pasaraya sambil tetep ngarep bisa ketemuan sm temen2 gw...

BTnya gw gak bisa ketemuan sm temen gw karena dah tepar duluan begitu nyampe rumah...secara dari blok M sampe rumah macet bgt...ah, nyebelin!!!Next time okay Girls...kita harus ktman lagi...

2007-03-12T07:57:00.000-07:00

Menemukan kutipannya Neil Gaiman dari email milisnya alumni Jepang UI...
sedih tp bener bgt!!

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable.
It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can
get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build
up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid
person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid
life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did
something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life
isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you
out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we
should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into
your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind.
It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside- you-and-rips- you-apart pain. I hate
love." --Neil Gaiman

Sedih...

2007-03-10T08:21:00.000-08:00

If you never say goodbye
To the best thing in your life
There are things you don't appreciate at all
So it's best that you don't try
Holding back the time
Are you ever gonna be
Quite satisfied

Begini nih klo lagi berusaha melupakan seseorang...eh, manusianya malah SMS-SMS terus..nyebelin,gak tau apa klo gw lebih sering sakit hati (walaupun seneng juga siy..)klo ada di deket dy...ugh,kesel...

Maunya gw kan semua bisa selesai dan gw bisa terus melanjutkan fase baru dlm hidup gw tanpa harus ngeliat ke belakang lagi..dia malah bikin gw jalan mundur,nyebelin..

Aku kronis nih...uh,jadi sedih...

Free at last

2007-02-28T02:44:00.000-08:00

What?
Hari ini, dengan back sound lagunya Sting, i was brought to my senses, suddenly i realize klo sepertinya gw sudah bisa melepaskan seseorang yang selama 3 tahun ngendon dan kemping di otak gw.

How?

Gak pernah ketemu lagi, dah berbulan-bulan gw gak pernah ketemu sama dia dan itu mempermudah proses melupakan. Setiap gw mencoba dengan sengaja ke depok untuk bisa ketemu,,,eh, dianya gak ada.(gak jodoh bgt siy!!)
Dah beda lokasi dan sangat gak nyambung, dia di depok-bogor, gw di jakarta..jadi kemungkinan ketemu juga gak ada.
Pikiran gw dah lebih ruwet dari dulu,,banyak yg harus gw pikirin yg lebih penting dari mahluk yg satu itu.
Entah ya, pokoknya lama-lama dia terkikis dari otak gw..huahaha..
Biasanya suka telfon-telfonan sekarang dah jarang, malah dah 2 mingguan gak pernah gw sms lagi, dan gw jarang bales smsnya.
Kayanya dah mulai basi..
sepertinya gw hanya suka tahap-tahap kenalan sampe pendekatan aja deh..dan itu smua dah lewat.

So?
Jadi gw kembali seperti dulu...single working girl with ambition...huehehehe!!

2007-02-27T23:35:00.000-08:00

Seuatu di buletin board FS iseng...gw kerjain disini...so bored!!!

PERSONALITY
5 years ago: santai berat, veryvery easygoing
now: tetep sama cuma jdi sering panikan aja..

LOCATION
5 years ago: ciputat-depok via lebakbulus
now : ciputat-pondok indah-rawamangun

STATUS
5 years ago: happy girl (single)
now: in confusion

STYLE
5 years ago: tshirt+jeans buluk+converse garbage brown shoes
now: vintage shirts+red cardigan+skinny jeans+flatshoes

HOBBY
5 years ago: baca...
now: tetep baca (bacaannya lebih mutu) + blogging

JOB
5 years ago: mahasiswa baru who got lost in translation (salah jurusan maxudnya..)
now: a dedicated bookkeeper + still college student

FAVE FOOD
5 years ago: pecel ayam Roni + es teh manis di kancut
now: chicken mozarellanya Solaria + beef lasagnanya oh lala cafe

FAVE BRAND
5 years ago: don't have fave brand..i dislike shopping.
now: nanonine, butik2 kecil di lamandau

HANG OUT SPOT
5 years ago: kancut, pondok rida no.4 kober
now: oh lala, rumba juice (skywalk Pim 2)

MOBILE PHONE
5 years ago: nokia
now: sony ericson

WEBSITE
5 years ago: google
now: FS, myspace, blogger, detik.com

MUSIC
5 years ago: any music
now : jazz, 70's, 80's, electronic ky homogenic.

TV SHOWS
5 years ago: gak nonton TV, klamaan di kampus
now : CSI, ghost whisperer dan O channel

HAIR
5 years ago: unpampered curl
now: short layered curl with side bangs

WEIGHT
5 years ago: skinny
now: lebih berisi..

TRANSPORTATION
5 years ago: Deborah baik AC atau nonAC
now: 72 atau 102 atau Xenia biru tua

PHOBIA
5 years ago: UTS & UAS bunpo dan PA gw dulu (no offense Mam,,it's just that you scared me a lil' bit)
now: stock take dan customer galak

BREAKFAST
5 years ago: masakan nyokap
now: masakan nyokap atau bikin sarapan sendiri

GOAL
5 years ago: get by japanese language study(anyway,anyhow...:p)
now: seek more job experience, backpacking with my siblings, enjoy life.

Beginilah...liburan garing...

2007-02-20T07:27:00.000-08:00

JurnalJurnalItu....

hari ini ke sastra lagi,,seperti kunjungan gw biasanya nih, lokasi pertama yah pasti kostnya nora di Rida no.4..tp hari ini misi gw adalah membaca kembali Jurnal itu...alias bukti otentik dari sgala kebodohan, ketololan dan keanehan perempuan2 diploma jepang'02..huehehe!!

tapi setelah gw membaca, menelaah dan memahami lagi itu tulisan-tulisan, ternyata banyak kata2 yg ternyata wise skali untuk ukuran usia kita jaman dulu...gak perlu deh cari quotes2 orang terkenal, sahabat2 gw ternyata jago bgt nyiptain kata2 penyemangat ato malah bikin gw kronis sejadijadinya, seperti..

"Logika itu harus selalu ada. Jangan maksa memasukan logika ke perasaan, tapi logika dan perasaan harus berjalan beriringan."

"Gw dah mulai bisa ikhlas. Gw bisa tetep tersenyum liat dia men-treat pacarnya dengan baik."

"Disaat sebuah penjelasan adl hal terakhir yg gw inginkan, justru dia memberikannya sebagai hal pertama."

"Gw bersyukur karna proses pendewasaan diri gw gak seburuk yang gw bayangkan."

Tapi anehnya sejak gw kerja, gw merasa kekurangan asupan vitamin jiwa dari orang-orang di sekitar gw sekarang ini..esp. lingkungan kerja gw, smua terasa hambar jadinya.. But i guess i still think i'm blessed enough to feel every moment in life.

Lonely Day...

2007-02-11T21:24:00.000-08:00

I could tell from the minute I woke up.
It was going to be a lonely lonely
lonely lonely day.
Rise and shine rub the sleep out of my eyes.
And try to tell myself I can't.
go back to bed.
It's gonna be a lonely lonely lonely lonely day.
Even though the sun is shining down on me and I should feel about as happy as can be.
I just got here and I already want to leave.
It's gonna be a lonely lonely lonely lonely day.

Everybody knows that something's wrong.
But nobody knows what's going on.
We all sing the same old song.
When you want it all to go away.
It's shaping up to be a lonely day.

Kenapa dengan lagu ini?apa hubungannya hidup gw sama lagu ini?..
Secara jelas bgt ada tulisan LoNELY DAy gitu.

Jumat kemaren saking kangennya sm temen2 gw di sastra, gw belabelain ke depok pulang kerja sore2. Perjalanan yg gw sangka bakalan menyenangkan itu berubah jd bikin gw sebell berat..
Kan gw naik deborah dari perempatan PI udah nunggunya lama + panas pula.. pas nyampe perempatan fatmawati tiba2 mogok aja gitu.. dan smua orang disuruh turun + minta uangnya dibalikin.

Tapi karna liat ada Debi lewat lagi,sampai lupa minta balik ongkos gw.. rugi deh gw!!T_T..
Trus pas gw ke kancut, dah kosong bgt.. salah gw siy masa ke kancut jam setengah 8 mlm..hehehe!!gak penting bgt!!Yg gw liat cuma segerombolan cowo2 di meja ijo (sepertinya anak2 arkeo..) sm di payung lagi pd maen kartu dan yg masih bisa gw kenalin mukanya cuma Yoga Inggris dan Coki Jepang.. abis berbasabasi bentar, gw cabut donk!

And the worst news is comin'.. gw liat di salah satu mading klo gebetan gw bokapnya baru aja meninggal dunia..whatta?!?gila koq gw bisa2nya gak tau ya?langsung cepet2lah gw sms buat ngucapin turut berduka cita.. tp dah telat bgt gitu!!!hih..BETE!!

KULIAH + KERJA = LELAH....!!!

2007-02-06T10:44:00.000-08:00

Beberapa hari yang lalu gw ambil nilai di kampus...dan kaget karena nilai jauh dari yang gw harapkan..mang siy semester kemaren gw mengakui memang agak sedikit capek tiap pulang kerja harus nyiapin otak dan tenaga buat baca dan ngerjain tugas kuliah.

Dan akhirnya kemarin waktu mau ngurus rencana studi semester depan gw harus terpaksa ngurangin matakuliah yg harus gw ambil dengan resiko lulusnya telat bgt, tp gw pikir daripada dapet nilai gak maksimal kan percuma juga...

Dan tiba2 dosen gw tanya "koq ambilnya sedikit?kenapa?sibuk ya?"

Gw cuma bisa senyamsenyum doang!!!!

Padahal dulu pas mutusin mau kuliah sambil kerja, gw semangat bgt...pokoknya bisa deh...lancar kuliah...kerjaan juga oke...ternyata sekarang gw mulai ngerasa klo semangat gw mulai ilang dan di kerjaan gw mulai ribet dengan double job yang bikin pusing!!!

2007-01-26T22:41:00.000-08:00

Nyebelin.. beberapa hari yang lalu blogger gak bisa dibuka karena ada error gak jelas gitu.. padahal sdang ingin menulisnulis. Jadi, terpaksa gw tulis aja dulu di blog FS gw..baru deh gw pindahin ke sini..

Btw, ngomongin soal menulis nih ya, gw kangen skali dengan old fashioned curhat yang biasa gw lakukan dulu sm temen2 gw di sastra, nulisnya disatu buku yang memang official book buat curhat,,isinya gak melulu curhat soal percintaan doank,,, tapi juga yang lain2 spt..memaki hari yang panas dan kurang menyenangkan, obrolan sm sopir angkot, sampe protes2 soal hasil ujian yang benar2 menakjubkan alias kacau,dll.

Dah lama bgt gw tidak menggunakan fasilitas pulpen sm kertas buat ceritacerita.. mungkin karena crita gw dah habis buat dua blog yang gw bikin kali ya..?!Tapi tetep aja gw kangen yang namanya nulis rame2 trus reaksi dari apa yang gw tulis langsung ketahuan dari komentar temen2 gw..

The point is gw kangen nulis di JK..yang dah menghibur gw bertahun2 lalu..

Boring!!!

2007-01-20T06:16:00.000-08:00

BORING!!!

Tersentil kembali untuk nulis disini,,hmmm,,,apalagi yah..kayanya satu2nya rasa yang gw punya sekarang itu Cuma rasa kangen.. kangen anak2 KC, anak2 Koukosei* (bukan SMA yah!), kampus sastra, the way my life rolled at that moment, my laughter at that moment, my tears at that moment, my desperation at that moment..

Karena saat ini gw gak punya hal yang mungkin bisa gw kangenin dimasa depan,,smua berjalan begitu datar sampai gw gak sadar apakah gw memang sedang berjalan maju atau Cuma diam mematung, I definitely have no clue..

Kadang bahkan gw gak sadar klo satu hari sudah berakhir, terus terang gw gak pernah ngerasain emosi apapun,,kalaupun ada yang namanya emosi itupun berakhir sangat cepat, gak bisa diingat apakah gw senang atau sedih atau malu atau gagal..entahlah itu perasaan apa namanya..

Dan terciptalah diriku yang saat ini, the most boring person, fase hidup yang sangat tidak menyenangkan, terasa tidak hidup sama sekali..

*Koukosei dlm bahasa jepang artinya anak SMA

Snake on the house...

2007-01-10T06:21:00.000-08:00

Snake On The House...

sore tadi tiba-tiba nyokap teriak-teriak katanya ada uler masuk ke kamarnya,karna penasaran, gw samperin lah ke bawah.. dibawah bokap sm ade' gw lagi sibuk ngubek-ngubek kamar nyari itu uler, tapi gak ketemu-ketemu.

Trus gw bilang aja "mama salah liat kali.."
nyokap bilang "gak mungkin!mama kan masih bisa liat..kliatan koq,warnanya item!"
kakak gw bilang "uler jadi-jadian kali.."

.........eh,tiba-tiba bokap teriak dari dalam kamar "ulernya ketemu nih..". ternyata uler beneran loh, gw bingung masuk dari mana yah?!?ulernya panjang tapi gak gede-gede bgt..biar gak gede tetep aja gw takut,ngumpet di bolongan laci bawah meja rias..hihhh!!

Temuan uler hari ini bikin smua pada parno jadinya,,kakak gw maunya tidur lampunya nyala,,trus nyokap gak mau kemana-mana sendirian deh,,gw juga parno siy,sedikit..hehehe!!!

2006-12-25T04:55:00.000-08:00

A VERY HECTIC CHRISTMAS...

Kayak tahun2 sebelumnya tiap natal rumah gw jadi tempat kunjungan utama, cuma yang sekarang acara jadi jauh lebih sederhana.. menu makanan gak seheboh dulu dan acara juga gak terlalu rame rame bgt. Yang gak berubah itu cuma berisiknya sepupu sepupu gw yang masih pada kecil kecil dan lucu lucu itu, blom lagi klo mereka dah pada ngeberantakin kamar gw.

Yang paling nyebelin itu pas mau dateng kebaktian malam natal di gereja, tiba2 jadwal berubah dari jam 7 malem jadi jam 6 malem,, karna gak tau gw dateng telat dan hampir sejam ketinggalan kebaktian dan cuma bisa dapet duduk di luar karena kursi di dalem gereja dah penuh bgt dan kakak gw gak bisa ikut gereja karna sakit.. bayangin donk mau natalan malahan sakit, sehari sebelumnya gw juga sempet kena flu parah gitu untung besoknya langsung sembuh.. Thank GOD!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR

2006-12-18T12:51:00.000-08:00

another LuvThing

Akhir akhir ini lagi suka banget dengerin James Morrison yang You give me something, lagu ini lagi heavy rotation berat di CD player gw.. menggambarkan kenyataan klo gw gak bisa lupa sm seseorang and i have to face it.. even though its kinda freak me out..

Coz you give me something that makes me scared alright
this could be nothing but im willing to give it a try
Please give me something coz some day I might call you from my heart
But it might be a second too late
The words that I could never say
Are gonna come out anyway

2006-12-16T01:44:00.000-08:00

Love thing!!

Nothing but love.. hmm.. lagunya siy enak tp pa bener klo everything is nothing only love is something?!? There are so many question marks on my head. I got another photo about him and I just realize the day the photo was made is a day after I introduced myself to him.. huahaha.. I feel so embarrassed, but its quite funny. Anyway he doesnt look good on the picture but what do I care.. coz I didnt love his appearance, I love sumthin beyond that on him.. I barely can remember everything that ever happened to us on those days.. but the feeling is still there, it havent change.. the warm feeling, the cozy atmosphere when I try to get a glimpse at him, those eyes that would made my knee trembled, and I kinda missed it.. couldnt tell anyone that I still do, it would be weird. Which girl would love someone for two years and barely meet for almost a year, but I did.. I did!!! I guess I just have to keep it for myself.. and this blog.

I think its true when Nina said that Im closing my doors for anyone else. Didnt know why I did that. Dont realize why I did that. Dont care why I did that. Im waiting for someone whos smart enough to open it. If they wont try then I dont want them. Even when they could open it… its only my heart that would decide. Would I forget him for someone new or not? I dunno..

2006-12-08T16:07:00.000-08:00

NeuPhotos

Ini foto adek sepupu gw,namanya Razka,liat donk kecil2 dah bisa bawa mobil..hehehe!! jangan percaya, ini cuma trik kamera doang!!!

Klo ini sih kebiasaan..gw sm kakak gw tuh banci kamera bener deh, dari makan sampe nunggu di parkiran aja kita foto2..

ah..gila dah jam 4..harus tidur nih!!!

2006-12-08T02:23:00.000-08:00

Another weird week...

Tanggal 1 desember nyokap gw ultah ke 50, bertambahnya umur nyokap bikin gw sadar supaya bisa lebih dewasa.. jadi sedih!! Mam, hadiah menyusul ya!! mengalami kegaringan di kantor karena seharian harus mem-barcode 4 kardus buku diskonan bulan Desember.. trus langsung display.. sharian b'keliaran bolakbalik bawa trolly segede gaban!! lelah, letih, laper...

Tanggal 4 desember berkat 2 hari makan siang gadogado trus (maklum pilihan menunya kurang memadai siy), perut gw bergejolak dan gw gak masuk kerja takut ga bisa berhenti ke WC...tapi bukannya tidur gw malah nonton DVD sharian..trus sakit perutnya dah gak brasa gitu di siang hari, brasa bolos deh...

Tangga 5,6 desember sibuk disuruh training cashier... katanya siy.."selain pegang section buku harus ngerti ya soal kasir" agak males siy, tapi lumayan kan ilmu juga tuh.. berlatih bersama mbak Minar.. di bagian IT. Pusying berat!! terus terang gw masih kurang ngerti gitu...

Tanggal 7 desember pertamakalinya gw nyoba jadi kasir,,wah gila susah bener.. apalagi klo bayarnya pake kartu.. karena gak biasa sm screennya gw sampe salah pencet harga dari 525.000 jadi 5.250.000,,,wakkksss!!! untung bisa dicancelled, klo gak... mati aja deh gw..
Sampe rumah jam 5 sore tidur sampe jam 9 mlm, ngecek nilai ujian gw dah ad ato blom via online.. ternyata blom ada tuh, dah gak sabar nih penasaran bgt!

2006-12-08T01:05:00.000-08:00

Akhirnya setelah sibuk gontaganti template gak jelas gitu...gw dapet mood yang oke dari template yang ini!!

Oh iya sekarang dah Desember nih..hmm..I smell HOLIDAY..!!! tapi seperti biasa karna jam kerja gw gak ada perubahan, pas taun baru aja gw masuk shift siang!!! yah, terpaksa ngerayain taun baruan bareng di toko deh..untungnya natal gw bisa libur 3 hari, jadi holiday gw gak garing-garing bgt..

Sebelum gw lupa..mau protes nih buat para suporternya Persija yang Rabu (klo gak salah nih..) kemarin tanding di lebak bulus..Tolong dong JANGAN BIKIN MACET jalanan..gw pusying gitu seharian liat smua orang oranye smua, mensupport sih ok..tapi jangan bikin keramaian berlebihan gitu donk. Klo macetnya cuma di lebak bulusnya aja siy gak papa, tapi klo dari PIM udah macet gak bergerak kan bete...

2006-11-30T20:20:00.000-08:00

Folklore Indonesia?!?

really really need to clear my head so I write, selama sebulan menikmati indahnya section children(yang bener aja indah..!!) gw mulai concern akan sesuatu..intinya adalah anak2 indonesia itu setiap hari dicekoki dengan smua western cultures, bayangin saja… gw tidak melihat ada sedikit pun buku tentang cerita budaya Indonesia..(bukannya mau sotoy yah) tapi ini serius loh..dari yang masih baby di ajarin nursery rhymenya twinkle twinkle little star..emang ada apa dengan lagu bintang kecil?!? trus, untuk usia balita sampai yang baru belajar baca dibikin tergila2 dengan suatu produk “nyonyaburung” (maaf..dilarang menyebut merk) yang secara isinya adalah crita2 klasik orang luar…seperti rapunzel, three little pigs..skali lagi gw tanya emang ada yang salah dengan kancil atau timun mas?!atau bapak-ibunya yang udah lupa jalan critanya kali ya?!factor parents itu penting..klo orangtuanya keamerika-amerikaan, anaknya juga pasti ikutan kan.

Gak salah siy belajar bahasa inggris sejak dini, gak munafik juga siy gw mang banyak baca buku bahasa inggris akhir2 ini tapi gw kan dah tahu dan mengerti klo my base culture is Indonesia. Dan kayaknya tugas2 dari sekolah mereka yang mungkin rata2 swasta tuh mengharuskan mereka untuk baca literatur anak2 tapi smuanya (skali lagi) crita klasik luar bukan Indonesia..mungkin sesuai dengan kurikulum sekolah2 itu ya!!tapi tolong donk skali2 anak2 itu diingatkan klo mereka tuh anak2 indonesia bukan anak2 yang numpang tinggal di Indonesia. Mungkin gurunya harus kreatif juga tuh,,bikin tugas yang bisa nambah pengetahuan anak2 soal folklore Indonesia..atau crita2 rakyatnya indonesia kan bisa aja disadur ke bahasa inggris..ya toh!!

Ini bukan protes yah..Cuma kekhawatiran aja klo tiba2 sudah tidak ada lagi anak2 Indonesia tingkat menengah keatas yang tahu klo ada crita-crita kaya Ande ande lumut, timun mas, panji semirang,dll..kalah bgt sama Cinderella atau snow white..

Bisa habis folklore indonesia..stuju?!

2006-11-29T21:09:00.000-08:00

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2006-11-21T21:24:00.000-08:00

JGTC...

Akhirnya minggu kemarin jadi juga gw nonton JGTC,,,karena gw dateng telat,,jam 4 sore, gak bisa liat Tompi and the groovology, karena mereka tuh manggung jam 3an..di JGTC yang kemarin klo gak salah tompi maennya abis maghrib gitu,jadi gw dateng sorean..ugh,nyesel gw!!!
ini nih review artis yang gw tonton...

1. ParkDrive
Penampilannya oke..lagu2nya di album pertama dibawain hampir semua(gw lupa berapa lagu)..mereka pake dua vokalis cewe, si vokalis asli alias Mikuni yang keturunan Jepang itu gak ikut, secara gw suka bgt jadi gak pengaruh siy.. thumbs up!!

2. Luluk purwanto and the helsdingen trio
Oke skali!!!takjub gw liat ibu ini bermain biola..dengan rambut eksentriknya itu, dia sm suaminya yang main keyboard sukses bikin crowd kasih applause terus. A Boy from ipanema pake biola??amazing!!!

3. Benny likumahua and margie segers
ini juga oke...udah gitu musisi yang ngiringin mereka berdua masih muda2..favorit gw adalah si pemain gitar, barry likumahua, sepanjang tante margie nyanyi orang2 pada sing a long dan benar2 menikmati what people called Jazz.

4. Rieka Roslan
Two thumbs up buat rieka roslan yang berhasil bikin crowd yang seharian duduk terus tiba2 berdiri dan joget2 bareng pas lagu barunya "berpantun" dinyanyiin. Mungkin yang paling menyita perhatian itu tuh si backing vocal cewe yang gayanya seksi skali dengan baju pinknya.
Menurut gw pas rieka maen adalah peak dari acaranya.

5. Ruth Sahanaya
sebelum uthe manggung ada sedikit keributan, crowd depan lempar-lemparan botol minum gitu
dan gak jelas kenapa. Tapi begitu uthe naik panggung crowdnya langsung diem...dia nyanyiin lagu2 yang sangat ringan jadi smua langsung pada duduk lagi. Ramenya crowd yang sing a long cuma pas lagu L-O-V-E aja dan acara langsung ditutup sambil nyanyi You got a friend plus liat fireworks.

Intinya siy bagus, seperti biasa JGTC lah...salut deh buat anak FE!!

2006-11-21T20:54:00.000-08:00

lemparan dari diandra gw tangkep..gimana di..sudah sembuhkah pacarmu?

**NINE last things you did**
1. Last place you were: kamar mandi..
2. Last cigarette: bertaun2 yang lau
3. Last meal: kentang goreng
4. Last movie watched: little manhattan
5. Last phone call: lupa...
6. Last CD played: lisa loeb
7. Last bubble bath: gak suka bubble bath
8. Last time you cried: a week ago
9. Last alcohol drink: long time ago..yes,i'm clean!!

**EIGHT have you evers**
1. Have you ever dated someone twice: yup...for no reason.
2. Have you ever been cheated on: nope..hopefully never
3. Have you ever kissed someone: yup!!
4. Have you ever kissed someone you regret: never..
5.Have you ever fallen in love: yes...recently
6. Have you ever lost someone: pastinya!!
7. Have you ever been depressed: di taun 2005 awal..
8. Have you ever eat a life animal: no...too disgusting..

**SEVEN branded things**
1. Shoes: converse,sendal jepit teva
2. Bags: roxy
3. Shirts: 347,nanonine
4. Make up: vaseline,ponds,bodyshop
5. Jeans: tira
6. Coffee: ohlala,nescafe,coffemix
7. Glasses: gak pake kacamata.

**SIX things you did in the past four days**
1. display buku/kerja.
2. nonton jgtc
3. blogging
4. nonton dvd
5. nginep di kostan temen
6. read books..

**FIVE things in your mind right now**
1. hasil ujian
2. gajian
3. seseorang
4. kontrak kerja
5. Me..he3x!!narsis..

**FOUR people you can tell pretty much anything to**
1. keluarga
2. bunga
3. Resti
4. monic

**THREE favorite colors**
1. kuning
2. item
3. putih

**TWO things you want to do before you die**
1. minta maaf ke orang2 deket klo gw emang pernah bikin salah.
2. menikmati setiap menit menunggu kematian..

**ONE goal for this year**
1. staying alive...

ada yang berminat dengan postingan berantai?silakan ambil!!!

2006-11-12T09:56:00.000-08:00

Tiba-tiba di beri banyak pertanyaan..aduh males..tapi gw lagi garing juga nih!!

1. how's your heart lately.?!
** sedikit kronis,banyak senengnya

2. when was the last time you went out.?!
** baru aja pulang nih..

3. what was the latest movie you saw.?!
** step up..channing tatum keren skali!!!

4. the last place you went.?!
** belanja di D'best.

5. miss someone.? !
** iya bgt...dah lama gak ketemu org bogor ini.

6. what made you smile today.?!
** sms dari santi!

7. the last time you fall in love.?!
** hari ini...dan masih terus...

8. when was the last time you had been
dating.?!
** hmmmmmm....

9. ever love someone so deep.?!
** sedang dilakukan..

10. what is your status right now.?!
** apparently single and enjoying it

11. did you dream last night.?!
** iy,mimpi gagal ujian...hiks,hiks!!

2. what are you doing this morning at 7 am.?!
** ngerjain ujian..

13. what are you doing this morning at 10 am.
?!
**di rumah..tidur

14. what colour underwear are you wearing.?!
** perlu dijawab yah..?!?

15. what is a country you will ever want to
visit.?!
** ke amrik kali yah..

16. how many piercings do you have.?!
** gak ada.

17. do you have a tatoo.?!
** gak mau.

18. what is the last thing you ate.?!
** nasi fu yung hai

19. what song are you listening to right now.?!
** seven days in sunny june - jamiroquai

20. who is your bestest friend of the opposite
sex.?!
** kay..

21. do you have a nick name.?!
** yes, mbah all the way.huehehehe..

22. things you need to do everyday.?!
** a lot of it.

23. are you a type of person who easily gets
hurt.?!
** yah..gitu deh!!

24. the last thing you said to one of your
friends.?!
** hari senin dpn shift apa?

25. the last person who called you.?!
** hanako

26. the last person who sent you a message.?!
** bunga

27. the last person that you chat with.?!
** ga ada

28. the last person you talked with.?!
** kk gw

29. what cant you live without.?!
** music and books

30. what things you want to do now.?!
sleep..tp gak mau nih!!!

2006-11-10T21:55:00.000-08:00

#Inside Da Store#

Satu hal yang bikin gw suka kerja di toko buku itu adalah kesempatan untuk ngamatin orang-orang, dari mulai ibu-ibu rumah tangga yang berkunjung cuma buat janjian sama temen2 arisannya,anak2 ABG yang jago bgt ngacak2in display-an buku gw,artis-artis sinetron yang terkenal bgt sampe yang brasa terkenal,,,udah gitu tingkahnya macem-macem,dari mulai sibuk minta bukain banyak majalah tapi gak ada yang dibeli, mesra-mesraan di bagian pojok2 toko sampai harus kita liatin dulu supaya sadar klo dah jadi tontonan (please..people get a room!!).

Tapi ada juga koq yang seru2,pernah untuk pertamakalinya, gw dapet tip...ha3x!!padahal kan di toko buku gak perlu kasih tip...udah ditolak..eh,si bapak bule itu malah maksa..ya udah deh!! ada juga yang sangat sangat mudah sekali diajak kerjasama,gak rese',sabar..customer-customer yang tahu lah klo kerjaan kita juga berat (apalagi klo weekend),,lama2 gw jadi hafal mukamuka orang yang slalu datang dan datang lagi ke kino..

Apalagi sekarang gw jaga di buku anak2..kemarin sore gw bantuin seorang little girl bikin list buku apa aja yang dy pengin buat hadiah ultahnya..lucu skali!!

Kerjaan gw kadang bisa jadi sangat sangat membosankan tapi klo gw dah ketemu orang-orang baru yang menarik,,gw pikir-pikir lagi nih..ternyata menyenangkan juga.

2006-11-10T21:25:00.000-08:00

NumerologyKu...

Entered: yunita wulandari

There are 15 letters in your name.
Those 15 letters total to 67
there are 7 vowels and 8 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 4

The characteristics of #4 are: A foundation, order, service, struggle against limits, steady growth.

The expression or destiny for #4:
Order, service, and management are the cornerstones of the number 4 Expression. Your destiny is to express wonderful organization skills with your ever practical, down-to-earth approach. You are the kind of person who is always willing to work those long, hard hours to push a project through to completion. Patience with detail allows you to become expert in fields such as building, engineering, and all forms of craftsmanship. Your abilities to write and teach may lean toward the more technical and detailed. In the arts, music will likely be your choice. Artistic talents may also appear in such fields as horiculture and floral arrangement, as well. Many skilled physicians and especially surgeons have the 4 Expression.

The positive attitudes of the 4 Expression yield responsibility; you are one who no doubt, fulfills obligations, and is highly systematic and orderly. You are serious and sincere, honest and faithful. It is your role to help and you are required to do a good job at everything you undertake.

If there is too much 4 energies present in your makeup, you may express some of the negative attitudes of the number 4. The obligations that you face may tend to create frustration and feelings of limitation or restriction. You may sometimes find yourself nursing negative attitudes in this regard and these can keep you in a rather low mood. Avoid becoming too rigid, stubborn, dogmatic, and fixed in your opinions. You may have a tendency to develop and hold very strong likes and dislikes, and some of these may border on the classification of prejudice. The negative side of 4 often produces dominant and bossy individuals who use disciplinarian to an excess. These tendencies must be avoided. Finally, like nearly all with 4 Expression, you must keep your eye on the big picture and not get overly wrapped up in detail and routine.

Your Soul Urge number is: 9

A Soul Urge number of 9 means:
With a 9 Soul Urge, you want to give to others, usually in a humanitarian or philanthropic manner. You are highly motivated to give friendship, affection and love. And you are generous in giving of your knowledge and experience. You have very sharing urges, and you are likely to have a great deal to share. Your concern for others makes you a very sympathetic and generous person with a sensitive and compassionate nature.

You are able to view life in very broad and intuitive terms. You often express high ideals and an inspirational approach to life. If you are able to fully realize the potential of your motivation, you will be a very self-sacrificing person who is able to give freely without being concerned about any return or reward.

As with all human beings, you are prone to sometimes express the negative attitudes inherent to your Soul Urges. You may become too sensitive and tend to express emotions strongly at times. There can be significant conflict between higher aims and personal ambitions. You may resent the idea of giving all of the time and, in fact, if there is too much 9 energy in your nature you may reject the idea. You may often be disappointed in the lack of perfection in yourself and others.

Your Inner Dream number is: 4

An Inner Dream number of 4 means:
You dream of being a very solid citizen that people can depend upon. You strive for organization and predictable order. You want to be recognized as a person with a plan and the discipline to make that plan work like clockwork.

dapet di www.paulsadowski.com

gak yakin klo smuanya bener tapi miripmirip lah...

2006-11-09T18:34:00.000-08:00

HollyGolightly!!
Di kinokuniya slalu diputer lagunya Frank Sinatra judulnya Moonriver,,trus gw inget klo lagu ini juga jadi soundtracknya Breakfast at Tiffany-nya Audrey Hepburn-My most favourite actress-...di adegan terakhir waktu Holly Golightly keluar dari taksi dan nyari kucingnya di tong2 sampah...mungkin scene ini biasa aja..tapi maknanya dalem bgt...Holly sadar klo dy gak mau sendirian lagi setelah slalu menutup diri dalam kehidupannya dy yang kompleks berat,an escort at night turns to a sweet vulnerable women on midday,...akhirnya, bukan cuma kucingnya yang dy temukan tapi juga cowo yang slama ini sabar menunggu sampai holly sadar klo dy gak bisa hidup sendirian...endofthestory

Moon river wider than a mile
I’m crossing you in style someday
You dream maker, you heartbreaker
Wherever you’re going I’m going your way

Two drifters off to see the world
There’s such a lot of world to see
We’re after the same rainbows end
Waiting round the band
My huckleberry friend, moon river
And me

2006-11-04T23:55:00.000-08:00

Are u experienced?!
Liat di blognya dee kayaknya seru so..
i'm 84% experienced!!how 'bout u?

[x] Held hands
[x] Lost someone
[x] Never got a chance to tell someone something
important
[x] Cried my eyes out
[x] Danced
total: 5

[] Rejected someone
[x] Wanted to kill someone
[] Got called a slu*t/wh*ore
[x] Heard a rumour about yourself
[x] Hurt someone
total: 3

[x] Got involved in sports
[x] Got called a dork
[x] Fell out of love
[x] Went to a funeral
[ ] Know someone who has commited suicide
total: 4

[x] Wrote a love song/poem
[x] Went through a phase
[x] Got ditched
[x] Know someone really stupid and/or annoying
total: 4

[] Drank
[x] Made a mistake
[x] found drugs somewhere
[x] Thought (Tings: Emphasis is THOUGHT) you
found the one
[]Cheated on your bf/gf
total: 3

[] Found out your bf/gf cheated
[x] Felt like the happiest person in the world
[x] Felt like dying
total: 2

[x] Prayed
[x] Have/had a crush
[x] Disliked someone
[x] been somewhere you werent supposed to be
total: 4

[x] Spread a rumor
[] Smoked a cigarette
[x] Done something illegal
[x] Vandalized
total: 3

Now add it up & multiply by 3 this is how
experienced you are

2006-11-04T22:58:00.000-08:00

RamalMeramal..
Kartu Tarot berasal dari Italia. Pada awalnya, permainan kartu tersebut bernama Carde da Trionfi, atau Kartu Kejayaan (Trionfi: berjaya atau menang, triumph). Sebanyak 28 dokumen tertanggal 1442-1463 mencantumkan permainan kartu bernama Trionfi. Kartu-kartu Trionfi tersebut pun masih dapat dijumpai saat ini. Setelah mendapat pengaruh dari Prancis, nama Trionfi berubah menjadi Tarocchi.

Kepopuleran kartu Tarot diperkirakan bermula sejak Antoine Court de Gebelin menerbitkan sebuah buku pada tahun 1781. Buku tersebut menyatakan bahwa pendeta-pendeta Mesir kuno telah melukis kartu Tarot berdasarkan Buku Thoth. Mereka kemudian membawa gambar-gambar tersebut ke Roma untuk dipersembahkan kepada Paus. Paus kemudian memperkenalkan Tarot ke Avignon, Prancis pada abad ke-14. Penjelasan Court de Gebelin dianggap tidak akurat karena tidak didukung oleh bukti-bukti sejarah dan ditulis sebelum Champollion menerjemahkan bahasa Mesir kuno, Hieroglif (Hieroglyph).

Entah kenapa gw tertarik skali sama ilmu ngeramal yang satu ini..pertama kali nyoba ngeramal in tarot itu waktu kuliah di sastra,, trus temen2 gw mulai pada minta ramalin juga,tapi klo buat ngeramal diri sendiri koq malah takut ya?! biasanya begitu gw baca kartu apa yang kluar, orang yang gw ramalin langsung curhat berjam-jam. jadi kaya konsultasi gitu deh..

Mungkin kesukaan gw ramal meramal itu turunan juga kali ya, soalnya eyang gw percaya banget sama yang namanya primbon..itu buku primbon slalu ada di meja sebelah tempat tidurnya..sempet curicuri baca juga siy tapi bahasa pengantarnya jawa kuno gitu...

Ini foto gw ambil lebaran kemarin pas bokap men-translate isi dari primbon eyang soal sifat2 orang menurut hari kelahiran jawa.

Abis dibacain tarot nih lewat tarot wayang hasilnya memuaskan siy,,tapi namanya juga ramalan..boleh percaya, boleh nggak juga.

2006-11-04T11:09:00.000-08:00

Linglung...
awal november berarti perubahan di tempat kerja gw dah resmi..dan gw hari itu cuma bisa memandangi lahan kerjaan gw yang baru trus bengong -agak lama- sedikit mengalami kebingungan...mau diapain ya?mau bikin perubahan kaya apa?bisa lebih bagus dari yang dulu gak ya? Kebiasaan jelek gw mulai kambuh..nyali mulai agak menciut..ugh..sebel banget!!!!

Runaway...
beberapa hari yang lalu gw berhasil melarikan diri dari rutinitas...jalan sama sodara gw kliling jakarta..sampe nyasar2 di semanggi..garagara si driver alias ade' gw lagi blanky berat... menghasilkan 2 kaos dari nanonine plus es teler hawaii di plasa semanggi...huehehe..syenangnya!!

2006-10-27T04:24:00.000-07:00

akhirnya daku on line juga hari ini..karena PC tercinta gw mengalami kerusakan mendadak jadi slama seminggu gw sama skali gak ngecek blog...smoga blom telat yah kalo gw ngucapin SLAMAT HARI RAYA IDUL FITRI buat tmn2 blogku smua...

Seminggu ini berat bgt..gak libur tapi tetep harus kliling ke rumah sodara2 yang lebaran jadinya gw telat mulu sampe tempat kerja..pas lebaran ngumpul di rumah eyang gw cuma bentar bgt..sumpah gak brasa apa2an..nyobain ketupat aja cuma dikit..biasanya gw sanggup tiga ronde makan ketupat..ugh, nyebelin!!!

yak..cukup marah2nya...smoga next week teknisi komputer kantor bokap berhasil ngebenerin komputerku sayank...

SEE YA!!!

2006-10-18T04:30:00.000-07:00

It's midweek dan gw sedang menunggu-nunggu hari jumat...ingin cepat cepat libur!!!

Cuaca emang lagi panas banget di luar tapi suasana di tempat kerja gw juga jadi ikutan memanas karna lagi beredar gosip gosip gak jelas gitu deh..

Beberapa orang sibuk pengin nyoba ngelamar di tempat laen, sedangkan gw yang masih karyawan cupu alias anak bawang malahan jadi binun sendiri...trus klo gw ngapain yah?!?

ah..pusying gw sama politik kantor kaya gini..males walaupun gw berusaha slalu up to date sm smua gosyip2 terbaru.

Jarang-jarang nih ngisi blog di warnet..di PIM pula..mahal nih!!!tp gw bingung mau ngapain lagi sambil nunggu kakak gw tercinta menjemput diriku bersama teman2 edannya..

Ya sud deh..nuff story today!!

2006-10-14T05:20:00.000-07:00

Dapet dari blognya diandra.. about gemini female...

The Gemini female is the symbol of a modern intelligent woman who questions every convention and tradition. She is fun to know, although sometimes difficult to pin down. This woman's view of life is rather original. Her mental qualities are first class, but she possesses a "light touch" and is never boring. She will tend to flit from one topic to another during the course of a conversation, which most people find entertaining and amusing. Indeed, it is in such a manner that the women of this Sign find the greatest delight during social occasions. However, this female will never impose her views upon others, no matter how forthright those opinions might be. The Gemini woman is friendly and easy to approach, but not necessarily interested in a long-term romantic relationship. The passionate and receptive side to females governed by Gemini can turn abruptly distant at times, although they are not adverse to using sex appeal as a weapon if necessary to obtain what they want. The worst fault of the Gemini female is probably a strange elusive quality which could be interpreted by some as the shelving of responsibility. She is far from keen to adopt the more serious tasks of life at an early age and is never truly ready for the instituion of marriage. In fact, Gemini women are probably better off remaining unattached during their early twenties, then coming around to the idea of marriage later in life. In this way, they are able to settle down with few regrets and may even be enthusiastic, looking forward to the years ahead in the company of someone they admire and love.

Gemini women are quick studies with fast, glib answers. The positive side of this is that they initially make a favorable impression on the world...the negative being that they tend to stick with first impressions and are often superficial, frequently not delving deep enough to grasp the more complex picture of a person or situation. In short, they are prone too trust that what they see with their eyes is the whole and complete truth. The art of love is, more often than not, a source of great confusion to the Gemini female. Because she is so headstrong and brings so many mental complications to her feelings, any love connection is likely to be fraught with obstacles, ambivalences, difficulties or distances of some type. Nevertheless, this woman does value love very much. The problem here is that she will have a rather long list of prerequisites and finding the right type of relationship is not necessarily easy. Since Gemini is a dual sign, its unique symbol being the Twins, it may be that this female desires to complete herself by finding the "missing twin"...in other words, her soul mate.

As a partner, the Gemini woman is exciting and certainly never boring, but is frequently rather undomesticated...or, at least, not overly interested in the practical mechanics of running a residence. Her need for change makes her restless. Her idea of a home is somewhere where her family can feel free and relaxed, particularly in expression of their individualities. That having been said, she will often make for the ideal career-wife. As a mother, the Gemini female is great fun, but not always tolerant since there is a strong tendency for her patience to run out rather quickly. As a general rule, Gemini women are apt to lack stability and patience. Nonetheless, the Gemini woman is demonstratively affectionate and impulsive...her feelings becoming easily wounded if love and affection are deemed not to be returned. This female is considerate of the comfort of others and, under normal circumstances, is very generous, giving liberally to worthy causes. In emergencies, she will rise to the demands of the occasion in a most admirable way.

Known to be somewhat hysterical due to her ill-balanced nervous composition, the Gemini female is seldom satisfied with her attainments...yet, her versatility and adaptability make her capable of successfully filling any occupation she might chose to occupy. Frequently, this woman will have "too many irons in the fire." In that event, some (if not all) of her projects are bound to suffer and be left in an unfinished state...her excuse for this will invariably be that she lacks the time. The Gemini female requires constant change in order to remain truly happy. If she is unable to change her scene, then she is prone to change the cast by keeping a variety of friends on a merry-go-round of entertaining (although not usually on a very elaborate scale). In short, the women governed by this Zodiac Sign are charming, lovable, witty and provocative...but nonetheless rather elusive.

Ini..sumpah ya..hampir 80% gw mang kaya gitu..jadi tepat skali!!!

2006-10-14T04:32:00.000-07:00

I may not always love you

But long as there are stars above you
You never need to doubt it
I'll make you so sure about it

God only knows what I'd be without you

If you should ever leave me
Though life would still go on believe me
The world could show nothing to me
So what good would living do me

God only knows what I'd be without you

Lagunya Beach boys dari film love actually...slalu bikin gw kangen, resah, linglung..etc,etc.

Kamu kemana ya sekarang?!brasa jauh gitu...feels like wanna go back to the past ajah..

aku kronis berat nih..

2006-10-13T23:02:00.000-07:00

26 Juta WNI Gangguan Jiwa

Jakarta, BPost
Badan Kesehatan Dunia (WHO) mengungkapkan 26 juta warga Indonesia menderita gangguan jiwa pada 2006. "Ini kira-kira 12-16 persen dari total populasi Indonesia," terang perwakilan WHO untuk Indonesia Albert Maramis dalam diskusi menyambut Hari Kesehatan Jiwa Sedunia di Fakultas Kedokteran Universitas Indonesia, Jakarta, Selasa (10/10).
Menurut Albert, gangguan jiwa dalam tingkat ringan dan tidak perlu perawatan khusus antara lain panik, cemas dan depresi.
Dari 26 juta penderita gangguan jiwa, Albert mengatakan sekitar 13,2 juta orang mengalami depresi. Sebanyak 1.600-1.800 penderita dari setiap 100 ribu penduduk bahkan melakukan bunuh diri.

brita yang sangat menyeramkan gw dapet dari milis alumni jepang...ternyata panik itu dianggap
gangguan jiwa yah?!!berarti gw gangguan jiwa juga dong?!kan kadang gw suka panikan juga... hiiy..serem!!

2006-10-13T00:23:00.000-07:00

Selain dapet kiriman tugas dari dosen...eh,si dee ngasih kiriman tugas juga...abis lembur nih..senangnya akhir bulan banyak pemasukan..he3x!!!!

Seven friends I want to pass this on:
1. Resthia
2. jiwaresah
3. mitha
4. Wahyu
5. spedaman
6. Achiedz
7. Monic

Seven things that scares me:
1. Tuhan pastinya.
2. dulu,gw paling panik klo ujian bunpo(tata bhs jepang)sm kanji pas di hari yg sm.
3. agak takut ketinggian,tapi skarang dah mendingan.
4. nganggur...he3x!!!
5. kuliah gak kelar...huahh stresss
6. udah gak ada lagi tuh!!!
7.

Seven random songs at the moment:
1. Goo goo dolls - slide
2. beach boys - god only knows
3. Beatles - i will
4. leslie feist - secret heart
5. Letto - i'll find a way
6. texas - inner smile
7. indra lesmana - aku ingin

Seven things that I like the most:
1. new books arrived
2. family pictures
3. My PC
4. Jurnal kronisnya KC
5. Hujan..hujanan..he3x
6. someone at bogor who i recently miss...
7. Life surely!!

Seven important things in my bedroom:
1. jam weker hadiah
2. rak buku
3. radio
4. dvd
5. bantal
6. selimut
7. kk gw alias roommateku...;p

Seven random facts about me:
1. moody
2. geek by heart
3. agak tomboy
4. galak
5. bawel
6. stubborn
7. on time

Seven things I said the most:
1. capek dehh...
2. knapa bu???
3. kinokuniya,slamat pagi/siang/sore/malam!
4. males bgt sih!!
5. ganggu bgt deh!!
6. yang bener?!?!
7. makan kmn nih?

Seven things I plan to do before I die:
1. kliling indonesia
2. punya toko buku sendiri..*amin*
3. jadi wiraswastawan
4. sempet tinggal di new york...(ingin skali!!)
5. finding the right person to stay around
6. punya rumah di jogja
7. bahagia..jiwa dan raga.

dah kelar nih peernya..akan gw pass on lagi ke few people...catch it guys!!!

2006-10-06T20:30:00.000-07:00

-Yang ingin berteriak-
Kuingin sesuatu terjadi...

Tuk ramaikan sunyi
Tuk gaduhkan tenangnya hati
Tuk belalakkan mata yang mengantuk ini
Tuk gairahkan perasaan yang mengaduh karena bosan
Tuk sejenak rasakan adrenalin yang terhibernasi
Tuk nikmati kesalahan kesalahan yang kubuat
Tuk resapi gagal dan benahi dosa
Tuk bulatkan ambisi
Tuk jadi egois dalam sehari

Karena hidup, Menjalani dan mengalami
bukan Melihat dan mengamati…

another poem that convert my life into words..mengalami kebosanan kayaknya udah mulai jadi makanan sehari-hari buat gw,,lamalama terbiasa dan rasanya pun jadi gak jauh beda sama yang namanya sedih,kangen,bt,dll...

Tibatiba teringat...

Suatu malam di kancut bersama anak2 KC ditemenin lagu bang toyib..(huahaha!!!)
Perjalanan jauh naik mobil ke jogja sama keluarga ('95) dari tidur sampai bangun lagi...suara Chrisye bikin gw mabok.
Malem2 keliling kota salatiga jalan kaki,makan ronde dan martabak manis sm temen2 SMA gw (2001) cuma dalam beberapa jam sambil ditemani one nightnya the corrs.
Menonton seseorang main gitar di atas panggung di acara cultureholic ('04)...teringat silverchair dan greatest viewnya.
Menahan pipis di bis malem ke semarang,perhentian berikut masih beratusratus km..dan supirnya nyanyi lagu2 batak...
Kena macet 3 jam dari depok-lbk bulus bareng Gogo..diisi dengan curhatan gw yang gak abisabis..dan batere walkman gw tewas ('02)
Pertama kali lembur di Kino,buku2 berdatangan dan plastik wrapping beterbangan..terbantu skali dengan Tattoed on my mind - D'sound.
Naik sampai ke candi terakhir di Gedong songo, Bandungan..dan dpt bonus nginjek tai kuda..haahh!!!(2002)

Ternyata hidup gw not that bad...that's just a few memories that i collect...hope there would be a few more to come...

2006-10-05T11:00:00.000-07:00

Hari ini terjadi perubahan baru..dan gw bertanyatanya..ini berkah atau bukan ya?!? ceritanya tadi divisi gw ada meeting gitu,biasa deh,pep talk untuk ningkatin penjualan..eh,tibatiba tersebutlah topik pindah section dari ibu manajer tercinta.

Ya sudah terima nasiblah gw dipindahkan ke section buku yang jauh lebih besar dari yang gw pegang sekarang,lebih guede targetnya,lebih banyak bukunya,lebih berjutajuta penjualannya..huahhh!!!

Sempet jiper dan binun karena biasanya gw pegang tugas yang lebih ringan,tapi kapan sih gw pernah nolak tantangan...jadi gw jalanin aja kali ye..syapa tau malah sukses...he3x!!

Wish me luck yah!!minta doa restu nih..doakan gw supaya capai target..he3x!!!

Btw, gw mengalami kebodohan tadi...masa gw bawabawa kartu ATM bokap bukannya punya gw sendiri..jadi gak bisa ambil duit deh..pantesan PIN salah mulu...bodoh bgt siy gw...!!!Me and my stupidity..he2!!

2006-10-03T23:48:00.000-07:00

Beberapa hari yang lalu, pas gw pulang kerja tibatiba gw liat dinding kolam sm air terjun kecil di rumah gw dah berubah..tadinya cuma warna putih doank..sekarang jadi ada gambar batu2an trus pemandangan gitu..ada gambar burung2nya segala..

Ternyata yang ngelukis itu bokap...bokap emang jago ngelukis tapi cuma jadi hobi aja, apalagi setelah jarang ngantor. Katanya sih keabisan kanvas jadi dinding kolam jadi korban juga deh..wannasee..wannasee...

Pengen deh bisa ngelukis juga,,biar bisa ngerubah cat kamar gw yang kombinasi warnanya agak aneh,ijo-ungu,tapi gw gak bisa ngelukis,,kayaknya gak nurun gitu dari bokap..bisanya foto2in orang lagi ngelukis aja deh..he3x!!

CIAO...auf wiedersehn...jya mata...!!!

2006-10-03T23:25:00.000-07:00

Sedih bgt nih...libur tapi gak ada duit..gajiku blom turun..blom masuk rekening..sedih deh!!! Kata head office siy gaji gw dah ditransfer tapi koq lama bgt yah?!ada lebih dari seminggu kali..dan untungnya bukan cuma gw doank,,tapi juga beberapa temen gw yang buka rekening di bank yang sama...

Jangan-jangan bank gw tuh lelet kali yah...pokoknya gw sebel,padahal gw harus bayar telfon, beliin hadiah ulang taun kk gw...etc. Dan duit di dompet tinggal 5ribu saja..gmn cara gw berangkat besok coba??jalan kaki dari pasar jumat ke PIM 2 gitu?!ugh..been there,done that!! hmm..kas bon nyokap aja kali yah!!

Jadi sampai hari ini wish list gw blom ada yang terlaksana, karna kekurangan dana..next month lah...kan pas lebaran gw lembur..kasian ya gw..orangorang pada makan2 ketupat gw jagain buku..hiks..hiks..

Duuuuu!!!

2006-09-30T20:02:00.000-07:00

Let me tell you about their story
How their eyes sees through me

Weve been companied with a deck of cards and left over warmed coffee and cigars.
While around us singing old chores of stones and Beatles.

Weve been inspired by breeze of wind and skies of knowledge.
While thinking do we ever failed our chances everyday.

Its been a while

While I reminisce
While I build my life alone
While I remembered them as my anchor,
Kept me grounded.

Lift me again my friends!!
So I could see again
How wonderful the way this world works.

hiks..hiks..lg terkangen2 nih sm temen2 kuliah gw di sastra, padahal rabu kemarin gw baru ke sastra pas buka puasa, rencananya siy mau ngobrol soal inisiasi kemarin sama angkatan'05 tapi gak jadi, akhirnya malah dudukduduk gak jelas di kancut...tapi seneng juga siy karena bertemu seseorang dan seperti biasa kita senyum2an doank...ugh..cupu abis!!

Btw, sahabat2 gw bersenang2 dan bersedih2 alias anak2 Jepang'02 dah pada cabut semua dari sastra...sekarang semua sibuk sama kerjaannya masing2,,dari yang kebanyakan dateline, sampe sibuk dengan tugas kuliah yang menumpuk...

Untungnya masih ada Ayu yang bareng kerja di kino sm gw jadi klo kita lagi sama2 mati gaya sm kerjaan, bisa crita2 dan curhat2an...kadang yang lain jadi gak connect gitu sm kita...(maaf yah!!)

Dan gw kangen nulis di JK...!! jurnal kita yang seharusnya siy udah nyampe buku ke 4... walaupun kadang tulisan kita agak garing..yang penting kan suara hati tersalurkan...he3x!!

Mit,Nor,Way,Bung,Res,San,The,Ra,Fet,Li,Deph,Ka...Louph you gurlz...!!Miss u...

Guten Nacht

2006-09-23T11:49:00.000-07:00

Seperti biasa...dah malem-hampir pagi-gw gak bisa tidur...ada yang punya obat buat insomnia gak?! padahal besok gw harus kerja...iya...gw kerja di hari minggu juga!!tapi shift siang, jadi bisa bangun siang tuh...

Wah,besok dah mulai puasa nih...walaupun gw gak puasa..gw ucapin selamat puasa ya!! ...semoga pada lancar deh puasanya taun ini gak pake bolong-bolong...he3!!

Aduh, gak penting bgt gw malem ini..Yasud deh..happy sleepy everybody...

Ramalan Hewan

2006-09-22T21:30:00.000-07:00

Dapet dari doubutsu uranai nih...oke sekali ramalannya!!!thank god gw bukan doubutsu beneran..he3!!ternyata i'm not a housewife type...seriously?!

You are Yellow Fawn, who tend to be idyllic, not pretentious, and seem to give an impression of a tomboy, and someone who hates to lose.
Nevertheless, you are a woman with gentle heart and rather old fashioned ways of thinking.
You enjoy having life with atmosphere, and shows consideration and care for others.
But you can be very fussy about your preferences.
You dislike anything that is dishonest, and have passion and cuteness.
Your weakness is that you can be bit selfish at times.
You are honest hard working person.
Relationships that you feel safe tend to be restricted, and therefore, you are easily influenced by people and situation around you.
You can not easily adapt to changes.
You think high of morality.
You are easily moved by tears, and are honest and sentimental sort of person.
You tend to restrict your self with your cautiousness, and this may result in isolation.
You tend to be difficult to get to know, and will require time to become friend with.
Nevertheless, once your character is understood, you will be able to keep a long and steady friendship.
If you keep doing favors for those people who always ask you, you may lose your good fortune.
So, be careful.
You are not a housewife type of person, but you can be dependent on your husband.

Miscommunication?!?

2006-09-22T20:39:00.000-07:00

"I guess we've peaked on the phone" (elizabethtown)

Abis nonton Elizabethtown lagi dan kata-kata diatas bikin gw sadar klo slama ini itulah yang terjadi sama gw dan seseorang...dah berbulan-bulan kita rajin telfontelfonan...tapi begitu ada momen ketemuan koq rasanya beda yah.

Terakhir kita ketemu pas wisudaan di kancut, yang ada gw ma dy dah grogi aja duluan kaya orang yang yang blom pernah kenal gitu...huahaha...aneh skali!!Dan gw mulai bertanyatanya ini hubungan bukan siyh?!sepertinya sih bukan, cuma suatu bentuk komunikasi aja dimana gw dan dy ngerasa nyaman untuk ngobrol dan cerita apapun tanpa ketahuan orang lain...sampai sekarang gw masih ngerasa nyaman koq ngobrol sama dy, lagian kita juga jarang bgt ketemu,,kecuali klo gw mau nyatronin sastra UI tiap hari..iih,males amat,,kan gw dah gak di sastra lagi!!

"Through the wire, through the limit, through the wall...one chance to be with you...I gladly risk it all" (Kanye west)

Pindah rumah

2006-09-17T06:59:00.000-07:00

Hari ini eyang gw pindah rumah walaupun cuma beberapa meter doank dari rumah lama..tapi buat gw jadi waktu buat kumpul keluarga juga soalnya sejak having a job jadi jarang bgt bisa ketemuan sama my family...udah lama gak cela-celaan sama om-om gw, ketemu sepupu-sepupuku yang lucu-lucu dan terutama eyang gw tersayang.

Trus ada beberapa foto mendadak yang gw potret waktu semua orang pada sibuk beresberes...
agak kurang bagus gambarnya karena gak pake kamera cuma HP punya my sista, okta,tapi lumayan koq.

Begitu pulang gw akan menikmati liburan 2 hari gw ini dengan baca buku kuliah lagi...koq jadi sedih ya ngomongin kuliah...

2006-09-15T13:49:00.000-07:00

Dah jam 3 pagi...blom bisa tidur juga tuuh!! padahal besok banyak kerjaan..tapi mata gw masih males merem...sampai bingung mau ngapain lagi...pamer foto baru aja deh...objek penderitanya kakak gw,tapi kayaknya siyh gak menderita secara dia banci kamera juga..he3x!!!

Foto pertama terjadi waktu kakak gw sibuk gangguin gw lagi bersihin muka karena muka blom beres gw gak mau nengok donk...ternyata masih punya malu juga gw...he3x!!!

Next picture critanya suatu hari pas lagi makan di sebuah restoran soto, kakak gw sibuk bermanjamanja ke nyokap terus karna iseng gw foto deh...tapi gw suka foto ini kayaknya keren aja...

Yasud deh...gw harus, kudu, wajib tidur klo gak mau pingsan depan customer kinokuniya besok!!! See U!!!

Lonely,,,at home.

2006-09-15T09:46:00.000-07:00

Bingung jadinya mau sedih atau BT karena untuk pertamakalinya gw melewatkan CP atau inisiasi jurusan gw...hu..hu..hu..sebell!!!sebenernya siy bukan inisiasinya yang bikin kangen tapi esensi ngumpul rame-rame itu yang bikin kangen,

Tapi gw rela koq soalnya...gw merasa bertanggung jawab dengan pekerjaan..iya..pekerjaan gw!!! gak mungkin donk gw tinggalkan begitu saja disaat semua lagi pada cuti pulang kampung..
bo'ong bgt gw...
jatah ijin dah gw ambil sabtu minggu kemarin buat ke sastra, jadi karena tak mungkin lagi minta ijin, terpaksa lah gw menahan diri buat gak kabur mendadak dari toko ke puncak..he3x!!!

Jadi, hilanglah kesempatan buat menghirup udara segar yang asli alias bukan AC mall,,yang bikin gw masuk angin rabu kemarin. yah, smoga tahun depan anak2 jepang '02 + KC blom bosen klo diajak CP jadi gw bisa ikutan lagi.

#Barely a normal day#

2006-09-11T21:06:00.000-07:00

What's happenin' today?
Sepertinya hari ini banyak kejadian yang gak enak,,tiba2 tadi malam pulang ngantor kakak gw jatuh sakit. Trus jam 5 pagi tadi gw dibangunin karena Bokap-Nyokap mau ngelayat, mertuanya oom gw meninggal karena komplikasi diabetes. Dan oom gw dari keluarga bokap masuk RS Cikini karena penyakit yang blom jelas apa.

The Cause is?
Gw gak kerja hari ini buat nemenin kakak gw di rumah plus meneruskan tugas2 gw untuk membaca buku kuliah yang kayaknya kurang menyenangkan untuk dilihat. Logika, Sosiologi, Antropologi....Here i come...mendingan gw baca Historian deh!!!

See U Later...

2006-09-08T13:19:00.000-07:00

Tulis apa yah...baru saja menjejakkan kaki di sini...sekedar percobaan...